Walking Out of Fear

For years I've worried about where my life was going, how I would get to this place of peace and abundance, and what would happen when I got there. I took unknown steps and followed aimlessly, sometimes, making decisions out of fear. I ran away from what I didn't want and made decisions based off of my past mistakes. It was a hard journey of lessons learned through trial and error, or so it seemed. I listened to my elders on what to do and what not to do. And I thought by doing what was considered "right" that my life would be what I wanted it to be--peaceful and prosperous.
But that was not the case.

Who determines which road I should take or what is right for me and what is not? I thought that those who had gone before me or those that had lived longer would be able to tell me so, give me the answers to keep me on a 'straight and narrow" path. But no one could tell me that, except me.

I've learned that there are only two polarities that exist in the Universe: Love and Fear. And for so long, I have lived in fear. It was my companion. A friend of misery and self doubt. And because i couldn't see anything other then what it offered me, I accepted that that was to be me life. That I couldn't have more because I wasn't worthy to have more or better. I realize now how untrue that is. How for years, most of my life really, I've been lied too. And I accepted someone else's falsehood as true. Ignorance is such an ugly foe. Though, it has a purpose in life, ignorance is not bliss. I see now. I know now, I understand now. I hear now. I feel now. Everything that I was so afraid to believe, to even consider. I believe in me!

I walk out of fear. I shut the door and leave it to it's own demise. It is not my friend, it never was. It was a very poor bed fellow, and I see that now. I choose what my heart has always desired--Love! I reclaim it for myself and for my life. I choose Love! And shall forevermore live within it's light.